stupid

You're just another stroke in the pattern. So part of me thinks it's okay. But... the bigger part of me is glad that it isn't like that. The pattern isn't good for me. The pattern is a compromise. It's settling for something sweet right now, but bitter down the road. 


Fifteen minutes left to throw me together
For Mr. Right Now, not Mr. Forever
Don't know why I even try when I know how it ends
Lookin' like another, "Maybe we can be friends."


The thing about you, is that I don't get you. The others I understood because they just put it all out there. I guess I haven't known you long enough yet. But I probably won't know you any more than I do now. And even if I did, I don't think it would change much. You have your mind made up about me, but that drives me crazy. I really wonder what made you just stop talking to me. And... I wonder what ever made you START talking to me. Maybe I should ask you before I leave. My stomach starts to churn just thinking about it... that stupid butterfly thing you can do to me. And by the way... not that many people have been able to do that to me. You drive me CRAZY in the most annoying way possible. But now I'm kind of used to you so I like it. When you don't drive me crazy, I'm trying to figure out what's wrong with you. I just love the stupid stuff you do that makes me giggle and just laugh like I'm stupid... because it IS so stupid lol. but it's fun. :) I wish there was more than just what happens in a kitchen. But... I'll deal with there not being anything more. It's better that way, probably. Just makes me wonder what might have been and what could have been. Why must you be so cute? just the tiniest thing and i'm like AH! :D haha... it's so stupid. bah.

:)