balance

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The Little Things
Carlos Bertonatti

Say Hey
Michael Franti

Falling For You
Colbie Calliat

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Daughtry

Love Song
Sara Bareilles

Roll With It
Easton Corbin

So my life is like a roller coaster lately and I really don't like it. I like where am I am right this second. Coffee shop... couch... in front of a bookcase. in the middle of the city but still in my own world. with my phone not lighting up.

I just want to weigh out the good parts of life and the bad parts of life. Maybe it's my perspective that makes things seem worse than they are. If it is, that's pretty easy to change.

What I don't like:
my dad being grumpy, my dad being bipolar all of a suddden, my dad treating my mom like crap and not doing anything to help, my mom running to me with her complaints, my dad talking loudly on the phone, my dad listening to his retarded music way too loudly, i love you but you can't love me back, you are way too emotional, as much as i love that you're so heartless, sometimes i wish you had a heart, you think i'm sooo mean, you don't care about me as much as i care about you...you only text me when you need something, i only text you becuase i really care about what's going on in your life. i don't want to see you, please stay out of town. i think you're fake and will be run over when you're married. spilling tea on myself at work, being very frustrated over something small at work. i haven't even worked with you for a week and you're already asking me if i'm single. that you always text me when you get tired of your girlfriend.

What I like:
my job. the people i work with. the fact that i go to work, do my job, and leave... no drama. learning new things at work. buying books. finding shoes for work that i actually like! sitting here not worrying about homework, or another person, or who i'll run into, or who might call.... just sitting here in my world. you... that you make me smile. that i can lie in bed and not 5 minutes after you cross my mind, i'm laughing because of some tiny stupid thing that has to do with you. :) my freedom. my classes. that i get to see you soon, and i don't know how that will go. that i can smile without really having to think about it. my mom cooking good food. that i can watch grey's anatomy all day.


"be careful what you wish for cause you just might get it all." Daughtry

as much as i wanted the good to outweigh the bad... it's not. now what?


"And you kick back baby and dance in your socks on the windshield to some radio rock. And we'll roll with it, won't think about it too much. Baby, let's just go with it and get out of this ordinary everyday rut." Easton Corbin